Okay, It was one of those weeks where I think the message is- a question:
"Where do I go from here?"
I have been very happy dabbling in all of my passions.
Juggling my music lessons, crochet lessons,
blog writing, jewelry making, polymer clay creating, sewing, art quilting, deadlines..ect.
I finally finished two baby sweaters for my friend Jen who had twins recently.
Still working on a couple commission jobs and
WHAM!!
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| "Who has your money?" |
This past week after no notice my merchant provider decided to overdraft my business account
with some fee I never heard a word about.
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| or...the more money they make! |
In fact they claim they have been sending me statements in the mail
and I have not received one of them.
I have to dispute this with my bank and after being on hold and having the call dropped twice
I am reconsidering if I even want to deal with this bank anymore.
These are the not so fun aspects of trying to run your own business.
The total confidence shaking , trust destroying and motivation killers
that pop up out of nowhere.
I guess I don't need to tell you that merchant account is closed.
I have a craft show next month so I need to have a merchant account set up!
The good news is I am ready for a phone upgrade
so it looks like the Iphone and Square up are my best option.
I am so grateful for the experienced people who have helped me make this decision.
I feel like I am gambling with my life savings.
Which in this economy is truly frightening.
My husband tolerates my artistic nature because it makes me so happy
but I think he just wishes I would go get a regular job.
I have tried and even if I could get one he knows,
after 36 years with me there would be a heavy price to pay if it made me unhappy.
I spend a lot of time pushing away my masked enemies,
guilt, procrastination, the critic and fear of failure.
I don't need these real world parasites in my life too.
So feeling like a jilted ex I am picking myself up,
brushing myself off
and starting over again.
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| I will smile and have a wonderful weekend!! |
Looking at where I want to go, how I spend my time and who I can trust.
I am stubbornly following my dream, just adjusting the color...
